What I Am To You

What I am to you is not real.
What I am to you, you do not need.
What I am to you is not what you mean to me.
-Damien Rice "Volcano"

I think I finally put my finger on it. The fact that this guy (seemingly) isn't interested isn't what's been bugging me as much as it's the fact that I usually get what I want. Whether I ask for it or I buy it or whatever...I get what I want. But in this kind of situation it's not just about what I want. There's another person involved. Another human being's feelings and wants are in the picture and the fact that I simply want this person to like me doesn't mean that I'm going to get what I want. I can't pay this person to like me. I can't make this person have feelings for me.

I don't have the control. And I think that's the biggest frustration of all.